I’m use to feeling just.. monochromatic, unfulfilled, just a rat stuck in a trap. My apartment feels cozy for the first time, I think since I’ve ever lived here. The secret? Videogaming I guess.

I’ve always very purposely avoided video-gaming, I know from experience of crashing on my friend’s couch for half a year that it can be very addicting, time flys and nothing gets accomplished. However, just recently I said, oh what the hell, and downloaded a few games to my utilitarian laptop not at all optimized for gaming, lacking quality powerful components. After all, I did ask for the cheapest laptop, that I could possibly buy without it being a complete potato, in which Best Buy offered me this very underpowered pc, the idea being I use it for blogging, as for me, typing with keyboard is easier than touch keypad on phone.

This morning I played around with half life too, also played a great deal of an RPG dungeon crawler titled Fate, I’m sure some of you have played it, love it to this day. Breakfast consisted of Braums hamburger, fry’s and a banana split.

Around 2pm I headed on over to a local gun store to buy a Glock 10mm. A heavy caliber handgun that I am buying primarily for defense against bears, as I will be hiking solo on trails, this spring and summer. I was blocked from buying the gun as I was told that I needed to have my current address on my ID, not a past residence… sir, is it because I’m wearing all black? Is that why?😅 Maybe next week I’ll get on in to the DMV, and get my real ID issued, that way I can go and buy the gun.

A little heartbroken I returned home, and spent $40 to buy the halo master chief collection on steam.

I played classic halo, in its original graphics, I do plan on downloading the cursed halo mod for it, should be fun, might catch my PC on fire, let’s see how it goes.

After I finished playing and realized I needed to go to the laundromat I realized I was feeling emotions I’ve not felt in months, maybe years, contentment and happiness, looking around at my apartment as though through new eyes. What once felt like a cold sterile prison, now a place where I have experienced happiness. Videogaming, has taken a weight off my shoulders, the world looks different, more optimistic now, I really needed this.

what I need to learn now, is moderation, being disciplined with how I play, not overdoing it, but striking a balance. I am now convinced that when I save $10,000 I’m going to plop down $3,000 on a top line gaming laptop, buy a big tv, and hook the laptop to the tv, so I can game in my bed. Do not worry! The goal is still very much to become a multimillionaire, but I like everyone, need to decompress, and I think Videogaming is the answer. A decompressed Isaac is a happier Isaac, is a more productive Isaac. If yall have similar experiences, feel free to drop a comment! I’m curious to see how you decompress!